This is something I have never had.
Something I have never known.
I know I am in the process of “reconstruction” and “recreating”, but I am not entirely sure it is a process I really wish to do. I am not entirely sure I want to fix the past.
My “present” is so much better. My new, otherwise, present.
It has offered me so much more in the past few months than I have ever experienced before. Why would I want to give it up? For what I had and may be able to correct? The new is so much more complete than the old.
So. What am I to do? How can I decide?
I know, ultimately, I must decide. I must choose the one or the other.
Either choice will have lasting implications....
Focus.
Focus on the moment.
The moment is right here....right now.
Right now I have a fulfillment of fantasy standing before me.
Standing before me in it’s purest form.
I have before me the form of Woman.
A woman, naked and warm and casually ready to share her warmth with me as she pulls back the sheets of her tiny, single bed.
We stand together, naked, in her small bed chambre....not much larger than a closet, really, with one, no....two....small windows facing east.
The blinds are drawn and the light of the mid afternoon sun filters gently, indirectly through as she takes my hand, offering me the position against the wall....the first to lay down upon the cool sheets partially turned down.
She then lays next to me, my back against the wall and her back against my chest.
She snuggles into me as our bodies gently “spoon” together, her bottom pressing softly into my lap.
My left arm lays beneath her head, supporting her long flowing gently silvered hair.
My other arm slips beneath her left arm, gently cupping her right breast in my warm hand.
She purrs slowly, quietly, as we settle into one another....settle in for an afternoon of quiet conversation and intimate touching....some tender kisses and vulnerable hugging.
An afternoon of incredible connecting and profound peace....
Bob Curtis has a bachelor's degree in Psychology, and has been writing about the elements of relationships for a number of years.